Will I Stand in the Way of Theo’s Development
Another Dream of Theo Speaking
This weekend I slept over at my cousins cabin right on Strawberry Reservoir. I posted a video from the back deck. One of my friends responded saying: “Strawberry?”. I said: “Yep”and he replied: “People talk about portals, Strawberry is a portal for me.”
My brother, his wife and three kids plus my parents were also there. Once the kids settled down and went to bed, and once I locked Theo in his tent bed so he couldn’t escape, I sat on the back deck to look up at the stars. I turned on some “Interstellar” music and stared at the stars for a few hours. Our Universe has been around for 13.8 billion years and the Earth is one of the younger planets. I was hoping to call in an Alien and see a UFO. It didn’t happen this time.
But when I went to sleep I had this clear dream of Theo speaking. Theo was in his tent bed at the foot of the bed I was sleeping in. In the dream his babbling turned to clear distinct language. I woke up wondering if that was really happening or if it was a dream. When I woke up I was bummed to realize it was just a dream. However, I had this clear impression that once I clear my family trauma that he would speak. I know this is a strange thought. But I read this book called:
It Didn't Start with You: How Inherited Family Trauma Shapes Who We Are and How to End the Cycle by Mark Wolyn.
In the book it talks about how we inherit our ancestors trauma at the genetic DNA level. It could be anywhere from 3-7 generations back. I’ve thought a lot about this over the last few years. My Blymiller family line has a lot of drama and trauma. Just google the last name to see for yourself.
In 2018 I read The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein and in the book she teaches a meditation of how to connect to your spirit guide. When I did the meditation my Grandpa Tom Blymiller showed up as my spirit guide. At first, I was like: “what the f$&@?”. You see, I only saw my Grandpa Tom like 7 times in my entire life. He lived in a motor home and traveled around the U.S. Grandpa Tom was an alcoholic and beat my Dad, so my Pops moved out when he 14 years old and lived on his own. So you can understand the confusion and shock I felt when Grandpa Tom showed up as my spirit guide.
The more I sat with it, the more it made sense. I was battling my own addiction issues and he was there to help me because he still had some work to do.
Now this thought about clearing my family trauma so that Theo can speak hit me in the middle of the night around 3 am. My experience is that spiritual downloads come between the hours of 3-6 am for me.
Also, recently I have studied Gabor Maté really intensely. This man, in my opinion, is the worlds leading mind in addiction recovery. In a podcast interview he talked about his experience with ayahuasca and how beneficial it was for him. He said that if people want to help others that they better work through their own stuff. He said there are two types of trauma. Trauma with a capital T is trauma that happened to us that we need to process. trauma with a lower case “t” is stuff that should have happened but didn’t. It is the law of omission. What we needed in our development as a child or a youth and we didn’t receive. So everyone has some sort of trauma.
I have been working really hard on my own personal growth and development since 2016, and I will continue so I am not the reason that Theo, my beautiful son, doesn’t progress. Maybe this is a crazy thought. But maybe it isn’t.